weigh and measure week 8

So here i am again, its time to weigh, measure, poop, weigh and measure again :) I'm serious, those things can  weigh more than a few hundred grams and those little numbers are important.  well today i did my usual prep.,  shaved under my arms , cause you never know how heavy those little hairs can be :) 
today i was expecting a big gain, its period time, and so i have that delightful bloat and pains we women suffer  with, and  so when i got on the scales i was delighted that it was not a gain but a 200 gram loss. not much i know but its still downwards and *coughiateeastereggscough so i was expecting trouble,i will say though that i was careful and kept it in my calorie count.

So that's me down 8.4kg now, and 94.6 kg,  phew i cant wait to  get under that 90kg.
then it was measure up time, being bloaty wont give me the best results but i  was glad that i had results again 
Lost another 20 cm in body size, making it an overall loss of 46cm so far, woohoo where the hell did that all go, i have visions of 46cm of sludge glugging its way down the drain after i shower ewwww. making that's what all the sweat is lol I'm so glad we don't get shorter as we lose weight or i will end up 30cm tall by my goal weight.  I have not done my fitness test yet,  that will be done tomorrow, i just need to find somewhere new to do my 1km run as i now have a small boat and a fire pit in my front yard where i used to do my fitness testing. I'm off now to do a hair cut, then its back home to do housework and finish making Tatjahnas new top. 
I will fill you in on my fitness tests tomorrow. have a great day 
if you have been reading this and want to join 12wbt then there is the link and congrats on your new life
www.12wbt.com

thrown in the deep end , voice first

Hi lovelies, what a harrowing day today has been for me. i had 4 days warning so i knew it was coming , trouble is i have managed  to avoid this situation for almost 6 years more on a professional level. I certainly would not have volunteered to enter a singing comp, country or otherwise so i was a little shell shocked when mum asked me to do a duet with her for the comp today. 
What???????   me sing , on a stage, in front of people  , after all these years you have to be bloody kidding..!!!!!!!  so i said yes. wtf was i thinking. 
My vertigo can be awakened heavily by nerves so you should have seen me ,   as someone with anxiety i deal with feeling nervous quite often but today it was on high alert. i didn't think i could even lift my arms to hold the mikes lol  i just kept thinking about how  much mum deserved me to do a good job, I was not doing it expecting to get a placing, and we don't find that out till tomorrow,  i just wanted to beat my  nerves, wanted to have the chance to perform again , I loved performing for so long.

When we got to the venue i was feeling really nervy and wobbly but kept my thoughts as busy as i could, mainly on hoping others thought i looked as cute as i believed i did in my new dress lol
 we had to stay behind the stage and listen to all the other singers first, i hate that bit. my nerves tried so hard to take over that my arms felt seriously heavy. i said to mum that i probably wouldn't be able to hold a mike up so we asked them to leave them in the stands. probably lose points for that but i was not there for that reason.  I leant over to mum and said, " If i get so nervous that i pass out or faint, can you really quickly cover my ass"? she laughed so hard. but i was bloody serious lol,  i wouldn't have control over how i land so i just wanted to take care of my dignity .:)
Then i said oh and i have two pairs of undies on in case i crap a pair so if i do, just sneak them off and toss them under the stage while no ones looking.
 The laughing calmed a few nerves but as soon as they called us up i couldn't really hear anything. my head was going off into space somewhere, i was trying to stop my knees locking and  keep that professional air about me.. probably  losing that air as much as i was losing gas :) just glad the band was loud.
I have never sung with a band before so it was a real double test. i said to mum, " no pressure but   if you mess up , we are effed lol"   I was harmonising mum so it was pretty much up to her to keep me on track. We are pretty notorious for the odd slip up that always entertains the audience ... in a good way ... but doing it right mattered this time. 
I'm not even sure that i could see any of the people in the audience at all and i just know the other contestants were picking the shit out of our performance lol, cause we kind of did the same listening to them. just a little bit... and nothing disrespectful... nothing Simon Cowell like. 

Then mid instrumental mum does a dance thing.... wtf... i gotta dance.... shit.... in this dress, damn .. so i did my best little hot shoe shuffle thinking  that mum better remember my ass covering if i drop.

We got through the song and mum instinctively grabbed my hand as we walked off stage as she knew i would need the walking support .. and i did. 
I was so proud of her this competition as she has wanted to do it for 12 years and she finally did. Just like i dragged her into  my morning workouts , mum dragged me to the comp. The good thing is i am now a member of the club so will be practising singing every week  with mum and the band, and Damian  might even like playing his guitar sometimes for us too :)

So i have  been exercising... i didn't think i ever would again. 
I have  been clogging.... didn't think that would ever be possible again 
I sang on stage in front of a huge crowd in a comp...... what was in those brownies>????/ ( disclaimer, no brownies were consumed at all and certainly not any "funny" ones) 
 This is looking to be a very powerful year for me, lets see just how much more i can achieve.

 Whats next? pole dancing....... rock climbing.... wearing matching underwear??? who knows but I'm going to do it any way

a pic for you all to gander at... this is me Post singing , very nervous still and  waiting for my ride home... amusing mum with my " model" poses

 I'm not a r4eal big country music fan but i managed to find myself some boots for the day 

weigh in week 7,

Hi lovelies , its weigh in day today, i should have blogged you earlier but what a busy ant day i had today, i think i have spent all of  2 hours home all day. i managed to race to big w this morning for a little shopping for the kids, they will be getting clothes for Easter and one egg and they are happy with that. i also managed to buy a cheap little dress me me to throw on   for shopping or such,  at only 18 dollars it was a steal, i grabbed an 18  and got it home and realised i will need to take it in quite a lot, woohoo. they only went from 18 to 26 and for the first time in many years i had to back away from that section and look in the smaller sections. yayyyyyyy. 

So i  will stitch it later when I'm finished my blogging and the cleaning i missed out on doing today, and its odd cause now there seems to be mountains of cleaning when before there didn't seem to be that much. 
while at Big W i also managed to grab a really cute bra and pantie set,(don't tell damo i will show him later) this time i was able to buy a smaller size and it fit and it only cost me 15 for both , I'm used to buying them exclusively at bras n things  because they don't have my size in Big W. well now they do :)

Then as i was wondering through the fitness section i managed to grab myself some Michelle Bridges, One Active stuff, namely some of her sports socks and her new  hot pink workout jackets, i love it and this time i grabbed a 16 cause it looked about right . I have seriously digressed but i just wanted to  blab about my new threads. oh and not to mention the cool jewellery i snagged up for 3 bux.. mhmmm 3 little bux, now i will need somewhere to go. 

After my running around at shops i  got my workout done and dusted and  raced off for more appointments. 
The most important part of the day  was my weigh in,  no fuss and fancy words here today, i got nuddy, i got on the scales and i gave a little cheer, down to 94.7, that's 8.2kg gone now. *pumps fist, does a little fancy dance.

I am hoping to continue with getting results now, as i was a little up and down for a few weeks and the frustration was terrible. I'm going to keep at it and hope for the best. 

thanks for reading , and blog ya later x

Clogging nearly killed me.... i swear its true :)

Today marked my  return to clogging, i did not do this alone, i dragged my mum back there too. we started clogging together back in around 1999, 2000... eeek I'm old.. i loved it, we danced every week and i then practised like a madwoman every day at home. 

Then mum and i started fundraising for the fairy sparkle garden here in bundaberg,  this was always needed on Saturday mornings,  which meant we had to decide on either clogging or raising money... sadly we said goodbye to clogging.. then i went along and had 3 more kiddies,  after which we tried clogging again, sadly each time we restarted we had to go all the way back to beginners class, lol that sucked so we got bored rather quickly  and clogging fizzled out,  due to way too many reasons. 

we thought about starting up again but something always stopped us, mainly this time was my vertigo, and too many kiddies, i didn't have a way to keep the kids settled while i danced, so i waited, now they are older , and I'm sure if i needed to they could happily come and watch... I'm also hoping they might like to join up one day too for the fun of it. 

well today mum and i showed up, i was so nervous, i have the same clogs that i started with, and now it was 13 years on. i remember dancing years ago and having my stompers fly off ahead of me, lol big fail.    see pic below

well we got on our most comfortable, clothes for clogging, i assumed that all the workouts this round would have prepared me somewhat for the  stamina needed for an hour of clogging.. oh boy , i was wrong, i wonder how the hell i managed all those years ago . 

the hall we had to use was a very hasty replacement as the usual hall was double booked. the only hall was one that had gone under in the floods, so the fans and aircon were not rewired yet so they couldn't be turned on,  ai ai ai ... it was almost 31 degrees today, the hall had no airflow as it had a massive tree blocking one side and another disused massive hall on the other, plus bars on the windows, it was terrible, 
 After a brief review of some steps  we were into it. within the first 30 minutes i thought i might need a pace maker, a drip and  long cool bath. lol i was  a mess. i had already drank my 750ml of water and was not going to drink the water out of the tap as I'm a snob and these pipes had been flooded, they might say all is well with the water but i just thought icky no way .  next time i take two water bottles just in case., i will also wear a better bra as you will see from the video. I forgot how bouncy clogging is.


i managed to get a small bottle of water from my daughter as she had plenty and was only spectating. 

mum was a real goer lol she was getting into it. because of vertigo i have to be careful with turns so sometimes i did them others i didn't lol I'm hoping i can get the video to upload and you will be able to see a snippet of us clogging. 


finally  got the video edited,  

this  is about halfway through the lesson, I'm the blonde in the blue top and tattoo lol

the second one is of how wankered i am after the hour, i am seriously not enjoying myself anymore . i will be glad when i dont have a wobbly neck anymore. oh gosh, what if i am stuck with an old lady wobble.

well my pretties i better get off here and spend some time in the fresh air, otherwise Damian will wonder whats wrong with me . 
have a great weekend . i did have another video but its just not working for me today

weigh in week 6

I'm a day late for this post but us mums get terribly busy.
i have been amazed by the support for my post in the 12wbt forums regarding that asshole at jetts gym, I'm just glad to have the change to air these things and get such amazing support.

well i will cut to the chase here today, weigh in was yesterday. i wee'd stripped off naked, briefly looked at myself in the mirror, shook of the horror and got on the scales, damn it up by 400 grams. i expected it cause I'm due for a period and there is probably some fluid hanging around. Then today i got on the scales and the 400 was gone and i was back to 96. wtf???/ my scales really like to mess me over. the cheeky little monkeys.

It is also that time of year when nasty flu is going around. This is the first year that my doctor has asked that  i get us all vaccinated, I'm normally of two minds and being someone that gets anxiety one of my fears is sickness and the other is of adverse reactions from pharmaceuticals , this time though i have to bite the bullet and get it done.  After hearing how bad this new flu is  i was more concerned with missing out on working out than anything else. so after spending 135 dollars on flu vax for 6 people, and then panadol and nurofen for the kids, i am off to the nurse tomorrow to get them all done. , Fingers crossed  they don't get the fevers they used to get with the flu shot.
This is a short post as i have alot of pantry sorting to do. and I'm still in the middle of sorting this weeks shopping list for 12wbt.....

It was great to see Michelle bridges on the live chat and its always a laugh to chat in the feed, so it was a double bonus that she read out my comment i said about Easter " that i would buy some chocolate body paint for Easter and hop that the activities that follow its consumption will burn off the calories " gave her a chuckle, as to her asking me for the details, ummm i am not really sure she wants to know what i get up to lol
have a good day everyone and i will blog again real soon......... p.s why the hell did i buy two cupcake recipe books today?

It finally fits again

Just a quick post before i go and shower, I went out for the first time in eons tonight, normally my vertigo dictates my outings, well tonight i wanted to see my friend sing(Justin Standley ) and that meant i was going to be in public, i wanted to make sure that i looked good, so i got out a trench coat top and skirt, then realised it would be too hot, so then i got an idea, i grabbed my hell bunny dress, the petticoat that goes under it,  my under shirt, and my corset, i was determined to see if i had lost enough weight yet to be able to wear it again. 

i curled my hair, wore make up, big jewellery that Damian bought me and  i went all out. Time to get the clothes on and see if they work or even fit..... 

I will let you be the judge :) woooohooo i even had  compliments and a group of young men say "hey babe" lol 

hahhahah look at me gooooooooo,  i love my 12wbt... cant wait till i can fit into my purple one, but that will be a long way yet, it still sits here in my office  encouraging me with my goals ... night all 

Look out the Puppies are getting loose

I knew this day would come *sniffle sniffle, but its for the best,  i knew that for the sake of my health  and due to all the exercise that i would have to start saying my goodbye to my bountiful puppies.... breasts, tits, boobs, bosoms, tats, oh you get the picture. Due to my weight loss i have had to make some adjustments i knew would come but still feel a small amount of grief when the process started. You see i love my breasts. they are huge, yippee, Damian thinks the are pretty damned awesome too but now they are starting to shrink, Egad!!s what will i do now. luckily they are slowly shrinking and not the effect of sticking a pin into a balloon.

For me to find a bra to fit prior to 12WBT i had to buy a size smaller in the back  and then my cup size so it would fit right, then i had to use an extender. so i wore a 16F with an extender for my fat back.Probably needed a 16B for my back boobs too :)
Well today i can say, and this is supposed to be with happiness, that i no longer require the extender, that's a total of 10 Cm's not needed in bra. i have also had to tighten my shoulder straps as my  breasts thought they were  totally free when i was exercising and tried to bounce all over my shoulders and face, even occasionally knocking into each other, it might be soon that i can go down in a cup.... Maybe then i will need to sneakily change the E to an f so Damian doesn't think hes missing out lol

I also took a few more naked pics and hid them in a spycalc so noone can see them but me, well except for poor kahlyssa who had to take a pic of the back of me naked, I'm not sure she will recover easily cause i sure as heck didnt like what i saw lol. theres a long way to go for me , but i have started and that's a good thing.  I don't want to lose heaps of my breast, but i need them smaller so i can buy prettier and sexier clothes and get back into my corsettry  wink wink nudge nudge.

till next post, "Drop and give me 20"     oh dear that looks like I just wrote drop and give me 20 inches... i do mean push ups