Hiatus on exercise for now

As i type this i am sniffing again and cursing the little booger germs kids bring home from school. I'm also cursing the fact that when you are eating well , exercising and taking vitamins c and d etc that you should be fit enough to ward off a  cold at least. Not on your Nelly, those little germs must have hitch hiked in Connor's nose and he merrily snotted his way through the house gleefully spreading these foul beasts through my home. here comes busy as a bee mummy, cleaning and exercising ,  picking up these little hitch hikers and  silently offering them a ride to my soft tissues. 




 If you are looking for the microscopic bandits they went up there

My biggest worry is food and exercise. i cant follow the menu right now as theres nothing in me that says mmmmm bean sprouts. i had weetbix this morning as it was all i think my tummy could handle right now, and exercise, :( hellllp , i hate not being able to do a workout. i didn't exercise yesterday due to a raw throat. i went to bed with aches and  rawness, woke with no soreness in body or throat, now i have congestion and exhausted from last nights inability  to get to sleep. 

I had gotten out of bed in the hopes i could do light exercise, but shower first i must.  Once i got into the bathroom and saw the results of a couple of days not cleaning ( Wednesday i was out all day running errands and yesterday being sick and blurky) 
i figure that was it , i needed to make sure this house sparkled so i can evict these little blighters. 
the blighters being the germs , as i think i will keep the kids around a little longer, even the germ breeder Connor can stay .

I got undressed,  popped into the shower and cringed, nope i had to clean it, so i  called out to Jahny (Tatjahna) to bring me a scourer and the gumption. I'm thinking there was enough soap and body scum on my shower/bath that i would  be able to make myself a bar of soap. handy considering i just ran out (writes in on shopping list ) 

She gave me a rather odd look, handed me the gear then hastily departed, what? you don't like the idea of seeing your mother cleaning out a bathtub butt nekkid? yeah i wouldn't either ( bless me.... just sneezed) 

I gave that bathroom a clean  a mother with a white glove would be proud of. had my shower and  got out. That's when i realised , oh drat.... i think i just used up the energy i thought i had for exercise today. my head spin, my body tried to convince me to hibernate.  Its not going to happen with exercise today. I will need what little energy i have left to look after the additional 4 sick kids in the house with me. plus..... its driving me crazy that my house is a bit of a mess.  I will be getting up and down today,  cleaning section after section of the house. then i wont feel guilty for  throwing myself n my bed early tonight with a book. That reminds me to get dinner cooked this morning so i don't need to bother later. meatballs sound good for the kids, all filled with veges. 

Ugh, its time to lift my ass off this office chair and clean the dining room, and kitchen. ( how the heck is it that Dakotan was saying her voice was funny and throat sore when she got up and yet shes now jumping all over my exercise step....... i think i have been duped in my weakened state..... so that's 3 sick kids, that lass in on her own lol)

I'm hoping to be back into my exercise asap. and wish you all a lovely day.

*sniffle 

second week in weigh in

Today is Wednesday the 20th Feb 2013   and its weigh in day again. this finds me covering my eyes. i have made sure to do every workout and  to eat the best that i can, just ignore the dark chocolate i ate to day, i blame my hormones for needing it, i  really had to, no one wants me cranky and walking around kicking puppies or something do they?(OK i don't ever ever ever kick puppies and i have no intention of doing it , just to clear the air :)
this morning i got up, still tired as usual. it seems no matter how much sleep i get , i will always wake tired. i long for the day i wake up and feel super wow and full of energy. Apparently i have never been a morning person. I always remember i used to wake in a less than graceful manner, eyes squeezed shut, face all pouty, hair looking like i have been pulled through a small pipe backwards.  I remember the mornings my dad used to wake me up by using a very strange voice saying " wakey wakey hands off snaky" but i remember he would stretch out every syllable  , it drove me crazy, i would end up screeching at him that i was up and then trudge through the house in a bad mood. thanks dad lol.  well Today started like that. Tired and cranky, Connor was saying he was unwell and snuffly, the twins heard this and tried to cotton on to it and hoped to get on his stay home from school bandwagon. It failed but oh boy i was not in the mood for the tantrums they tried after that. Every move they made was in slow motion, all the while trying to bribe me, "mum if you let me stay home like Connor i will clean my room", "look mum i have a runny nose" etc. it didn't work. I raced in to wee and weigh, but first i tried to finish all toileting , if you know what i mean , just in case theres a little extra weight i don't want to weigh.I got myself cleaned( don't want to have a few hundred grams of dirt and unshed skin on me now do i?  i got my scales out, dusted them off, lined them up and got on them, got off them, got on them and back off, waited, and got back on. hm 97.2 OK i can live with that, not much of a change since last Thursday but considering I'm hormonal maybe that's a good thing, as i know in the past i have gained up to and over a kilo around this time of my cycle.
Mum was a nervous wreck by the time the last child was bundled off to school. she was here early to get our workouts done.One of these days my mornings will run smoothly and the kids will be looking forward to getting out of the house.  but i managed to get my cardio done, and holy crap i pushed my body so much harder all i managed to do was exhaust myself. i was dripping sweat like  a champion. Which reminds me that Damian bought mum and i sweat bands for our noggins as i had told him i was in need of getting some, its terribly hard to exercise when you have sweat running into your eyes, and i remember one moment  when i yawn and felt a huge dribble of sweat roll into my mouth but couldn't close my mouth to stop it. In my head though i was screaming noooooo ewwwww.  I will Have to show you a pic of us all sweat  banded up just so you can point and laugh :)

I'm hoping i will start shifting some good numbers soon  and i will be adding some evening cycling to try help..... if i can actually move still by evenings. I'm exhausted today and i just keep reminding myself  how good this will be for me and how much better i  will look when i lose the weight. i will ignore the snippets that pop in my head of a craggy  wrinkly neck , a floppy skinned tummy and  inner thighs that look like i have a couple of pancakes tucked into the leg of my undies.

 MY vertigo is on a high note today so I'm going to go and have a feet up rest to see if i can get it to calm down, maybe  con, i mean ask one of the kids to give my back a bit of a massage to help relax my neck.

Happy weigh in to all of you and have a great day including those of you not doing the Michelle Bridges 12wbt .

Yawns , stretches and scratches ass

Boy oh boy did i wake up tired today. the last few nights have been terrible for sleep. i don't know if its because im too hot, or cold, or hungry or restless, there could be a gazillion reasons i'm sure. i will work on the sleep thing. The problem was that i had Mondayitis , today on a Tuesday , i have always been a little slow on the uptake. The tiredness was almost hard to shake today and if i had not been motivated by mum being here i may have tried a day off, then would have felt guilty for it and later probably ruined my food intake by inhaling some chocolate.  it is ok though, crisis was averted.  you can stop holding your breath now. i opted for the exercise and was glad i did. Mind you i was a little like a  cat today, every surface i passed looked like a potential place to have a nap. I had a weak moment  and ate one of the kids bikkies. it was 40 calories. *rolls eyes. i refuse to feel guilty about it, but the 6 potato gems i ate have meant im not allowed anything other than dinner tonight. I am not too ashamed of my lack of  strength today as i have been doin gthis since January 5th and i have been doing awesome. Not one softdrink, chocolate bar or chip packet in sight. i have been getting the occassional one square of cadbury when Damian thinks i look homocidal , lol his answer is to race out to his hidey hole and find me a piece of choccy. the sweet man. I had to tell him that the same method would not calm a criminal about to rob a bank. 
I  can almost see Damian with his squares of chocolate saving  the world one bad mood at a time.
Well this time it seemed to have a good effect on me, but i swear it is really hard to hold that little square of chocolate in your mouth , melting it and trying to keep the flavour there as long as possible. i think my tongue was picking at every nook and cranny on my mouth in the hopes of finding a forgotten morsal to no avail.
I will one day lose my affections for  chocolate, around the same time that dogs can cook dinner i guess. 

Another reason for my lethargy today was also my chest pains, they were already investigated, echocardiogram done,  and all found to be ok, they believe its muscle spasms,  well i describe it less as a spasm and more of a knife stab. it doesnt happen often  but  this morning it happened a couple of times. they are so painful, sharp and quick that they literally leave me light headed. probably due to the pain of it. i was a little concerned so i was  more aware when i did my exercises. its been fine all day thank heavens. It does make me keep a close eye on it though. I suspect it has a lot to do with how i sit at the computer.My posture is crap, i mean i know how i should sit but for some reason when i get into my office chair i get all jelly like. my shoulders hunch , my tummy resting on my thighs, my breasts almost nipple to thigh , it really isnt very comfy either. i find im always shifting position, my other position isnt much better, my head back against the head rest, feet up on a foot rest , almost laying in my seat. Again i seem to find great ways to  lounge myself in my office chair and not actually sit properly in them. 
I just think that the slouching and the weight of my breasts  may be causing the chest pain. 

so the tiredness and pain almost blew my exercise. i managed to keep solidering on. It turned out to be a very busy day, not leaving any chance to even do all my housework. nawwww, she couldnt do her housework. the workout was done carefully . but now im trying not to nod off as i type. I am just that sleepy that i am starting to think the wet patch on my desk isnt from my cup but is infact a drool spot from nodding off. 

Tomorrow is another cardio day. and the big weigh in . noooooooooooooo , im not looking forward to this again.  last time i gained 200 grams, i just hope i get the results i want to see from it.  im thinking there might be something wrong with my scales, tomorrow i will know if they need to returned to the store. 
I have to go and get dinner ready, otherwise i will doze off in my chair again. the kids think that is hilarious, me typing one minute the next sleeping like a narcoleptic.

i wish everyone luck for weigh in , if i dont like what the scales say then i will have to take them back to the shop and tell them they are just not good enough :)
 just for my own amusement im adding a video of my son from the weekend

welcome my little family. The extra push behind my workouts.

This is where i finally introduce you to my reasons for living and wanting to improve myself.
As most of you know being a mum is the most incredible feeling on this planet.
It doesn't matter what kind of day i have , seeing my kids all happily tucked up in bed with those sweet little faces fills me with joy and pride.

This post will be a brief hello to my family, not all of my family mind you cause wow that would take forever. This will be my kids and my parents to keep it brief.

Wanting to improve myself in health , weight and fitness was encouraged by many things. Hearing my daughter say that kids called me fat, and then her trying to appease me while shes wobbling my belly with her hands. My youngest son saying he hopes I'm still alive when hes a dad ( that was a tear jerking conversation).
Seeing my second eldest daughter struggling with obesity all her life and struggling to get her to help herself when her fave excuse was, "well mum eats it".
Wanting to make my parents proud and not have them worry that i might keel over and they will have to look after the 5 kids lol I'm kidding I'm kidding. i just know that they worry about me even when they don't say for me to lose weight. The fact my mum busts her ass with me in workouts every day is testament that shes willing to support me through this no matter what it takes.The health benefits that i pray are there, less vertigo , if not have my vertigo be gone forever. Be able to run and play without feeling so arthritic. My last motivation  but not my final as I'm sure along the way i will find many other reasons to be doing the 12wbt program, my last is my boyfriend, he deserves a rocking body pressed up against him, one that doesn't keep undulating after a playful ass slap.

OK lets get these introductions in place. My boyfriend has already got a post all about him , which can be found with a few scrolls of my blog:)
i will start with my parents.  My dad Colin, and my mum Lisa. They have been together since i was 7 ( hes my step dad, but the only dad i ever knew )

This is me as a kid with my dad. he is a very gentle man and is always respectful to the feelings of others. he worked hard for his family and taught me so many things that have helped me be a better woman today.  My dad is the most patient father, he was also always proud of me no matter what i did. even with this program hes proud and full of encouragement.  He always told me i was beautiful and everything i did , even if it was a crappy drawing, it was always the best ever to my dad. They don't make them like him anymore. I love my dad.

I am starting to think that my dad may be to blame for me being photographed wearing the daggiest clothes and what is with my hair ?

I know this though that my dad will be proud of me no matter what the outcome is. 
He also has a quiet sense of humour. it sneaks up on you when you least expect it. 

My dad also had a fondness for moustaches :) woohoo dad,  oh , the above pic is me in the green swimmers, my mum and my dad. look at my smile aren't i just the cutest?

 

 He the best dad ever. Good job picking him mum. 

That brings me to my mum Lisa, she is a bloody character that one :)  Mum and i are as thick as thieves and always have been. We have done every adventure we could, from comedy shows to operating karaoke together, to dressing as and elf and fairy to raise money for charity. We have sweat it out at the gym together and survived a beach boot camp. Mum has always been a give a try kind of woman. Talk about funny, mum and i without fail always find something to laugh at. shes generous and kind, and always encouraged me to do what i needed to do. Even if it wasn't what she hoped me to do she didn't judge me by my decisions or my mistakes.  Good work mum :) 

Mum made the mistake of falling asleep before me :)

Both my parents have a great sense of humour :)

me on the left mum in the green elf suit

me hiding my double chin lol at my 30th birthday

  

mum and i with Ewan, on his 1st birthday

She is a well travelled mum, oh my i don't want to know whats under his lap lap thingy

 My mum has the prettiest blue eyes ever. 

  here is mum and Kahlyssa and Tatjahna , mum was a very naughty elf 

 I'm so proud to have my mum with me on this journey. i would be lost without her.

Time to introduce my babies. starting from oldest to youngest. 
Kahlyssa is my eldest, oh boy . This  cheeky girl has given me a run for my money . Always full of energy and pent up frustration.  i have had many trials a tribulations with her but she has the wickedest humour and has never stopped loving her mum. My journey with 12wbt has been eagerly watched by her.
She may be almost 20 but she will always be my baby girl and almost losing her in a car accident in December was  terrifying. Seeing your child in a coma isn't something parents should need to see. It still haunts me to see her so helpless. She is fine now,  she got quite a few injuries  that how now healed mostly. 


Kahlyssa and i always had a hard time getting a  serious pic 

  we managed it this time 

  she doesnt realise how gorgeous she is 

  lol  but shes a great photographer

  this was her first bath , she was a cutie head.

  who would think this innocence would become a teen terror lol

 Next is Tatjahna , she is now 14. She can be such a sweet girl but i need to remind you that shes a teenager.. "run for your yife" as Dakotah used to say

Tatjahna is  a food lover too and i worry about her health, nothing i did , even removing all :"bad" foods from the house mattered as she would then just eat copious amounts of other foods. I'm praying she sees what I'm doing and she wishes to make a difference to herself, because counselling, dietitians, doctors , none have helped. When shes not trying to act like Godzilla she is a loving girl. 
As shes gotten older she has shied away from the camera. 

 Such a beautiful girl i only hope she realises this and treats her body with more respect with regards to food. I have noticed  her keeping a food diary too and trying to be aware of foods and keeping a little more active. i will hope my influence will help her too.

 She also has the sweetest chocolate coloured eyes with the longest lashes ever ... mmmmm chocolate
My biggest issue with her these days is trying to keep her at school, but that's a different story.

Next in line is my pigeon pair, twins Ewan and Dakotah. These guys were supposed to be tiny, i mean they are twins, this will be an easier birth  cause they are so tiny right? nope ,  they were a month premmy , Ewan was 8 pound 3 and dakotah was 6 pound 11. 
I remember complaining that Ewan's birth should have made it easier to push her out but not a chance  lol.

Dakotah , with a turtle found crossing the road after the floods here in 2010/2011. i can still imagine mum now pulling over and rescuing it, while trying to be brave lol ( we took it back to the river)

 This picture below is Ewan on crazy hair day  with his funky faux hawke

  Ewan's front teeth missing, :)

Dakotah proudly showing off the dress i made for her, she still drags it out and wears it two years later, gotta love that :)

Even as a babe she was a smiling face kid :)

 The twins  are total opposites,  and Dakotah is very bossy , even with me, well she tries to be anyway.

They grew up with singing around them 

  and humour around them :)

 It has been a wonderful thing watching them grow. 

 Dakotah is always the boss of them, and the following video , shows a little of that. She used to love watching mum and i at dance class and was super excited to have her own little pretend tap shoes 

I love this video :)  , . Last but not least we have young  Connor,  He is the baby of the family and  because Kahlyssa watched him being born she has spoiled him, hes just a sweet little mummy's little boy and i wish my last child would stay young forever lol. Connor can be a larrikan, but then again it was genetically bound to happen 

  He is Kahlyssa's fave subject for photos 

crazy hair day, he must have confused with crazy face day :)

  the things he will  do for a laugh lol

 With my dad as a baby , 

 Such sweet innocence 

 All together my kids and parents are what keeps me going ,

 Of course Damian helps big time, Who else would i test my HRM with?
If all this isn't motivation , nothing else  will :)

thanks for reading today and welcome to my Family :)