a busy week, week 4 weigh in and fitness test ,

hello every body *waves excitedly.
Well what a busy week i have had this week, i discovered my  love of making baby shoes, and i have been getting alot of sewing done. I am going to see if i can make some "buy the boys tap shoes" money by selling shoes, i am keeping them as soft soled 0-6 month and 6-12 month, the latter being in a non slip sole. and i have a head full of so many ideas its awesome. i have been testing out some crocheted ones as well , i will post a pic of them when i get a pair finished in a colour i like.

these are just my first few , i have a lot more practising to do and  will get them to a perfecto level. 

Today marks the 4 week mini milestone, it is weigh in week, plus...dundundunnnnnn  measure and fitness test. 

My results are as follows, after 4 weeks, i have lost 1.7kg, yer  i know, bloody slow but at least its coming off. 

my measurements, down 11.5cm making it a total since Feb of 57cm in total body size.. Cant help thinking it is taking its bloody time with my double chin lol, 

 so today's scales were 

tadaa 91.1kg, that's 800g loss this week. which is a change as i was just dropping teeny bits for so long. lets hope my head is in the game more. 

I had noticed i was still cheating myself on calorie intake, some days just so hungry i would snack too much and it would show so much on the scales it frustrated me, but i didn't let it get me down as i knew i was not being the best i could be. 

I have been far more vigilant with what i eat now. Its funny cause i hear people saying how they have struggled with the exercise but are doing well with the food and yet I'm kicking ass with the exercise, doing training 6 days a week regardless and still  seem to mess up my food a bit, not in a really bad way, just in a damn i shouldn't have had some of that kind of way. i still behave and don't ever ever drink soft drink, i don't drink diet drinks, I'm not eating chocolate like i used to, i have not eaten chocolate for a couple of weeks ,  as in bought a block and had a few squares,  just in flavour of my belvita breakfast bars. So i know i am really close to being the best i can with food but not quite there yet. 

I have been making sure i am more active.  ans really pushing myself through my training, Saturdays i do my hour of dance class , then i go home and do another hour of my SSS, super Saturday session and i train my ass off, last Saturday i burned 705 calories just in  dance and training so i was very pleased with myself. 

i was going to sneak in another vlog but Tatjahna is home unwell and i  hate trying to video anything with kids around , it always goes pear shaped lol.

oh I was supposed to be in court this morning for the DVO application i applied for , and totally missed it as i was doing my damned fitness test. the judge threw it out of court.  and now i have to make a new application , i was rather annoyed.  I will go to the courthouse and get it all done. 

Speaking of fitness tests, today was a calorie burner, whoa, me running a kilometre, its crazy as i see these women posting in the forums about the  10 and 11km runs and I'm like wtf, how is that even possible lol. i normally do 300 meter jog, then 300 meters walking then 400 meters of walk/jog, cry, beg and plead for it to be over... lol its almost like that anyway. Today i jogged 600 meters non stop, then power walked for a hundred then jogged the final 300 . i was thinking holy shit woman how are you doing this, you are a machine rawrrrrrrr... well for a brief moment i did cause my head was doing this......... OK Gayle find your pace and stick to it, that's it , too fast wait, yes that's it nice and steady, this feels good and you are breathing good too. wow look at you go woman,  ohh careful bit of a pot hole there , nearly threw a shoe. phew you kept going , good work, oh no a cars coming, its OK , you are lighter now so you don't look as bad, but oh gawd what do i look like? my face might be all red ooop another pot hole, head in the game Gayle , that's it,  whooo, kinda feeling it now , breathe slower, easier, innnnn and ouuttt , oh thats right I'm supposed to breathe out and in through nose, warm the air, OK better try I'm starting to pant here... innnn through nose, out through mouth damn not enough air, in out in out in out , ugh how the hell do they breathe while, they do this,  gee my legs are shaky, what if i fall over, how embarrassing  oh crap another car, what the hell is my chest doing , please don't look at me just keep going Gayle,  damn these boobs are really trying to free themselves today.  silence for a brief while, that's 600 I'm allowed a breath walk for a minute , damn i need air, innnnnnn and out innnnn and out, walking , i still feel buggered , i may as well be jogging, so back into it, you can do this , look its not far now, oh look at that funny dog , hello little one,,,, concentrate..... 100 to go, take it home , push push push,  i think I'm going to hurl or pass out.  almost home whats for lunch?

yes my head does this the whole time I'm running, i need to up my game a lot and learn to shut my brain up when I'm doing this its like a reunion in there.i kept pushing hard cause i knew that mum knew CPR lol. well i hope  she remembers it. * note to self do CPR refresher course just in case.

I finished in 5 minutes 22 seconds which is 30 seconds faster that 5 weeks ago. i gotta be pleased with that.. 

as a final note, i took Tatjahna to the doctors for her chest infection, which is all cleared up now, and asked the doctor about the coughing i got after my run and he told me to not breathe the air through my throat and to make sure i either use my nose or wear a scarf over my mouth to warm the air as i breathe it , i figured i might try that next time. i just cant get enough air through my nose  at this time of year. then i told him of my 57cm loss and he was like , you are looking really good, you will have to let me know if you become single , i like women with ambition... should have seen how freaking fast i got out of  the office lol. I'm so glad i don't go to him for pap smears.... what is it with pap smears anyway, i mean we go into the room and the doctors gets us to disrobe and we  get the sheet thing to cover us for modesty ,but i always hide my undies under my clothes so the doctor doesn't see them  then  get on the bed thing and just open wide anyway... why is it more embarrassing to have a doctor see my undies than it is for them to be foraging around in my vagina like they are looking for their keys.    i really just don't get that lol...... Have a great day, I'm off to crochet.xx

weigh in week 3

ok so its week three of round 2 and holy buggers my weight loss is slow,  i got on and off the scales till i was happy that the weight didnt move lol, 11.1kg down, and im not happy that it has taken so freaking long, its time to step it up, harder workouts from now on and less hand to mouth, i will be really watching those calories and not a one over this week , and if i dont lose more i will be kicking my own ass. 

this is my proof, and no there isnt a rail above my scales to cheat with lol

i am going to work harder and hopefully bring you  a better number  next week 

suck it in baby and get that zip up...

Hello again, aren't you all lucky to get 2 posts from me in one day lol, i will have to do my weigh in post tomorrow too but that is then , and this is now. I have decided to join some of the other members of the 12wbt in a blogging challenge they have, chronically their journeys to fit into an item of clothing. I was seriosuly thinking of blogging me trying to get my ass into my very thin bath tub but i managed to finish that goal already  yayyy, to clarify ,i have a spa and the bottom of the tub is still a narrow bathtub design, great for the kids but when i was bigger and lay down the air couldnt get through the jets because my ass and thighs were blocking it, and when i try to move a little to let some bubbles out , it either forced the water into a spout and sprayed it everywhere or it just made a raspberry farting sound as the air squeezed past my booty, then i had that awkward moment of kids asking why it looked like i had been in a battle with an octopuss and had sucker marks all over my butt. 
I decided that i didnt really like spas anyway, its just not natural to have air sprayed at you at such high velicoty, it reminded me of the time i stood too close to an old person with gas. 

I did however rejoice that i can actually fit now and if i wanted to have a spa i would be able to enjoy it..... I have 4 kids at home, there is no spa time for me. 

So back to the challenge, i bought myself a new dress for my birthday, it was an XL , or so i thought, i have bought dresses from the company before and XL was always great, well i didn't count on the fact that it was UK sizing and XL to them is a 14 to us......oopsies. This meant i had the sweetest , floral dress and i could not wear it.... The sadness in my little heart was felt the world over.  well i am determined to get my ass in that dress, or should i say breasts, it seems the mammaries are causing a calamity in my dress sizings. I will first say that i actually have the sewing skills to make the dress fit me beautifully this afternoon if i wanted but like my daughter Tatjahna said to me, "don't cheat mum". 
Yes yes alright, the hard way it is, but im telling you all now, if this dress does not blooming do up properly by the time i get to my goal then im  going to alter it with my trusty machine :) you have all been warned lol. 

Below is a picture of me and my cute dress, first i will put a pic of what the dress should look like , as per the over thin model of prefection advertising the dress , then a picture of me trying to get the zip done up :)

i am in love with the clothing from this lovely store , who even does laybys, so say hi to  Jade for me if you find something you love. for awesome dresses

somehow i just dont quite have the look for it yet but you watch me , i will make this dress look good one day, just you wait and see :) 

Justin Standley , oh my how i have changed since i saw him last :)

Hi to my wonderful readers , today is a lovely rainy day here, just that light rain that makes it a want to snuggle in bed and read but will fall asleep after one page kind of rain. 
today was the reopening of our major shopping center here in town that was damaged entirely during our australia day floods. I didnt want to go to see the store, i wanted to go to see my dearest friend Justing Standley perform at the opening, so i really couldnt tell you what shops are inside hinkler, i only stepped into the front doors to get a kebab, small with no onion and lots of lettuce, ( gotta watch those calories) and  stepped back out to the pavillion where justin was singing. Now if you have been following my blogs there was a blog http://12wbt-getting-jiggly-with-it.blogspot.com.au/2013/04/over-did-it-now-i-have-injury-oopsies.html   that explained how a woman had used a pic of my back view to have herself a laugh at my expence, this pic she used was at one of justins concerts, I was hoping to see the same lady there so i could introduce myself and ask her if she approved of what i was wearing today so i didnt end up the brunt of her bullying jokes again. i didnt see her, but i will watch out for pics of my rear end online though. 

I may have just beaten her to it because i have lost 10.9 kg since i was at that last concert,  and im now going to add some pics of today and last time, just for you to see. 
I should be very proud of myself but im still a long way from happy about my size so i will save some of that pride till then, instead lets have a photo session as always. 

Justin performing , 

 yup thats me getting a big welcoming hug from a dear friend :)

 These pics below show you the difference between me, on the left,  in late october/november last year, and me , today :) still only a third of the way through but still working hard at it. 

 Im also going to add some preogression pics of THAT grey dress,  so you can see how far i have come in a short time :)

the first was the one used to humiliate me in public , the second i took the day i saw the  pic the woman used to laugh at me with , the third i took just an hopur ago to show you the stages i have changed.

Today i laughed and enjoyed myself and i didnt care at all that my ass might be photographed, in fact, i was bpouncing that baby to the music and daring anyone with a camera to have a shot at it cause Damina thinks its a hot ass and thats all i care about lol. im about to  type up another post with a little something interesting that i want to share with you all so stay tuned:)

Holy want to curl up and go to sleep batman

Good day to you fine readers, what a lovely day it iszzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz, sorry i keep dozing off, I'm seriously tired. I didn't get to bed late, i was all set to read my kindle, i have 85 new books to read on it , i was sneaky and found the free kindle books on amazon, including some to read to the kids at night so i was rather excited, anyway i didn't get past 2 pages before falling asleep lol. Damian came over and i was probably drooling and snoring, or farting. goodness knows what and he snuggled in, this managed to wake me up and i didn't go to sleep for a short while later. So having a disturbed nights sleep didn't help when i awoke and it was overcast. i just want to go back to bed, why do i always have to get up and get the kids to school? probably cause I'm the only one there . doh!!

i get the half of my kids that are not sick  off to school while doing my usual cleaning up after them and getting ready to do my workout when suddenly, rock and roll, my vertigo yells "oh you are awake , cool we can play"  not fun, it felt like i was on a boat when i stood up, so i took  something to help and kept trying with my workout. mum was saying i can see you are visibly stressed ,so we can do this Sunday, nope i had to get it done, i just said no its ok gotta try, it hasn't been fatal in 4 years so I'm not going to die from this. then i wobbled my way through my workout but holy sheesh i was tired, I just hope the kids germs have not tried to camp out in me as i will not be impressed. i have been walking around cleaning everything saying, "Catch it , bin it , kill it guys,"

 lol paranoid much and the only thing that worries me is not being able to train. Before i would have been frantic thinking i would get sick and possibly die thanks to anxiety but now i am moreconcerned with losing strength and not being able to train. I pushed through my training even though there were moments i was thinking it would be easier to go to lay down.  i got through it and even survived shopping at two different stores, i felt relieved to be home though and I'm fighting the urge to have a sleep lol. 

I have so far completed 200 of my 300 push up challenge this week which is on top of the workouts we already have to do . 
i will throw in the pic i took of myself as i was hurrying to the car to go shopping, I'm doing a flair stand lol, its simply me standing with one leg out and one hand pointing up lol look at me go.

 until next time , take care and say hi to ya mum for me 

week 2 weigh in , plus a late week one post,

Boy oh boy where has my week gone? i usually do a weekly weigh in blog then a weekend blog but i have had the busiest week ever, House inspection was today.... need i say more? This things drive me bloody crazy, i swear to you that one day I'm going to leave a whole bunch of sex toys sitting on my bedside dresser. they are such invasive things to have, i mean yes i can understand them needing to check in on a home but 3 monthly ? and so thorough it borders on privacy invasion , ugh it just rattles my bees it does. i was like a crazy woman making sure everything on my inspection list was done, even to the point of still mopping at 10 last night to make it all perfect. i even shaved my bikini line cause , damn you never know how thorough these real estate agents are going to be.
My biggest worry was my teenagers room, its always a bear cave in there, well I'm assuming it is cause all i ever get is a grunt or a growl if i enter. i find it easier to throw in some  food then run in and grab what i need while shes munching on something. she assured me it was fine, why didn't i check  for myself, my instincts warned me and sure enough the  agent walks in there and the fan blades were dirty. WTF????? yes she took a picture and i knew that you can get form 11's for a dirty fan.... its so pathetic it is amusing. my mum was here for our daily workout and she heard this and says, that's alright i will fix that right this minute ,  and raced in and wiped it down, so it will be interesting to see what happens, the old house i rented before this one, i got a form 11 and thought what the shit is this for as I'm uber careful as a renter,  and i mean careful. having kids and renting means I'm always on the look out almost to the point of paranoia. The form was for a dirty kitchen fan, but it wasn't even dirty it was a wipe mark from me cleaning it..... grrrrrr i had to fight hard for that as i  knew it would be a mark against me for future rentals, how is that even allowed? I'm sorry your honor, yes it was me , the value of this house that i was paying over priced rent for was dropped by 50 thousand dollars because i left a smear mark on a fan during a routine house inspection, it has now been remedies your honor , i am just thankful the agent didn't look behind the poster in the hallway or under the mat in the lounge and don't even think about looking at the 2nd drawer down in my bedside dresser.

I know that these things are a must to keep check of due to many houses damaged by tenants that are just neglectful but sometimes it is just too much. So after that little rant, i spent alot of time this week making sure things were just right and a fan blew it all, its almost like the lady thought , oh my gawd if the fan is dirty , imagine the other gross negligent things this woman has done, i better check the toilet bowl for impurities if that be the case.

i must have burn  hundreds of calories this week getting this all done , including mowing, raking and edge trimming , the old fashioned grass scissors way. So i was really thinking , yer i have to be in for a good loss this week, Last week i pulled a 400 gram loss, which was too small for my liking so i was really sure that this week i would finally get into the 91 bracket.... how did my weigh in go? ugh bloomin heck, i did the usual prep, got onto the scales and bom bom, only lost 500 grams, bringing me down to 92.1 and no matter how much i sucked my tummy in it stayed that weight. i am seriously going to have myself a massive celebration when i get to my 80's cause the 90's were bloody hard. ( should have seen my clothes in the 90's lol)


Last weekend i had no kiddies at all at home so it was really nice to just get in the car and go fishing. Went to the usual spot and not even much of a nibble  so the next day we went to  our old hunting grounds, sadly it isn't out really old grounds as the floods have wiped that spot completely away :( so the newer old spot had to do. This day i figured i would wear a skirt, and singlet top, the skirt was short but i thought well no one sees us in this spot and it was a lovely day my legs could get some sun on their pasty whiteness.

From the look of my ouchy pic i probably should not have underestimated the sun or the gale force winds that hit us when we got to the jetty . i was a little concerned with the skirt and wind combo and had to apologise to Damian for the flashing problem.  He apparently didn't mind at all, wink wink. I , however was horrified that boaties kept coming back and forwards past the Marilyn Monroe show i had going on.
I did manage to catch a couple of fish though, that were released immediately as they were too small lol.

  Damian caught the first little cod of the day, i soon showed him who  wore the cod piece in this fishing trip lol, they both still were lucky enough that i wasn't interested in eating them so they went back.

It was nice to just relax this weekend and get some time together.

The last few days have been so busy with my training and  cleaning, and even when i was so exhausted from all the work i had done i remembered the challenge that was set this week of 300 pushups on top of the ones we have to do in a workout.... what?????? how in the world, what was this woman thinking? Anyway. i was chatting to Connor while cooking dinner and realised i didn't do my 50 push ups for the day. so i stirred the dinner, then got my 50 done and got back to the dinner, he didn't even batter and eyelid lol, he just kept happily chatting and playing while i went from stirring dinner to push ups and back until i did my fifty.
so i am halfway through my 300 , yayy, i know i will get them done, but wow they make my shoulders all wanky. i will no doubt be having trouble raising my hands above my head for a while, so i have made sure not to have any appointments at banks, cause if i do and a robber bursts in yelling , " get your hands above your heads of you die" then I'm stuffed lol.

So house inspections done,  fishing was taken care of, ahhh that's right, i wanted to tell you all about my mindfulness course i also went and had a gander at yesterday.
It was a really interesting course and i have decided to sign up for the 4 weeks one in August. Mindfullness is all about living in the now, not the past or the future,. As someone who suffers both anxiety and depression i have always lived in the past or future, both of which are not places i liked being if they were negative and usually my head found all the bad things and reminded me of them. Being mindful tackles those issues and teaches you how to stay focused on the now and not letting these thoughts and feeling stop my day, but instead I'm accepting they are a normal part of life and am letting them come along for  the ride.

I even download Russ Harris's book the happy trap  for my kindle and will be reading through it as i feel its got a lot it can teach me. I even went to  www.thehappinesstrap.com.au  and had a sticky beak. I was impressed with the information i received and  will learn alot of coping strategies from here.

Being disorganised or having your mind be a mess can interfere with life's goals, so i found cleaning my house up more and organising my office space more., doing these courses and having the support i do has made my weight loss journey a lot easier. I love so much that Damian sees the strength i am using to achieve my goals and he is being so very loving and sweet with me, complimenting me and helping keep me on my journey. I love that my mum gets on her workout finery and comes over every day to sweat her ass off and get through the workouts with me  and is actually enjoying it. I love how the new me is proud of her work and yet is still motivated to  lose more.

i just wanted to share this last pic before leaving you to go and finish your chores. Kahlyssa had left her nutella  at my place and i text her to say , whyyyyyyyyyy you leave your nutella at my house???

first vlog

welcome to my first vlog, i wont always do this but i thought every now and then to make it different i will do a vlog.. :) enjoy