weigh in week 3

well after a week of no exercise , i am desperate to get back into it, i will have to start off cycling again till I'm strong enough to tackle Mishs workouts.  

Today is weigh in  day, i had hoped like crazy that i would be able to  empty my digested food before weigh in but it wasn't a possibility * adds benefiber to cup of tea 

so with a heavy digestive tract i got myself naked and  climbed onto the scales.  96.5kg   i should be excited shout it but I'm too tired and down to be, so here it is , woo .. there you go my excitement. 
It feels like my body has gone into pre 12wbt laziness due to the illness. now i want it to be how it was when i was busting my ass with my workouts. 

I may have healed a little quicker with plenty of day sleeps when i felt exhausted  but having the kids home sick meant it wasn't possible. 

i will admit that i should have gone to bed way way way earlier last night,  or should i say early this morning. its no wonder my tank is only half full today.  today i get to peel one of my kgs of my visual board. i have 33 tabs of postit paper strips with numbers on it hanging along the bottom of my board and each kilo i lose i get to peel them off, every 5 kilos has  a reward for me to work towards . Today i will take one more off and work as hard as i can to get a few more off it within the next few weeks. 
My numbers are not dropping as fast as i hoped they would,  they are dropping for sure, just not very quickly. 
This will take alot more will power and strength, i just hope i have that in me . 

Who am i kidding, i have to have that in me. I'm a mum, and we are the strongest people on this planet. 

I will keep working towards my goal of getting my "fitbit one" to work along side my HRM, which i have to add i miss wearing. 

I also have to concentrate on my self care. my facials i used to give myself, my hair is overdue for a trim and colour, my nails remain all gnarly and bitten,  i rarely let myself get down like this, in fact i haven't actually tried on any of my smaller clothes to see if they fit . time to pamper myself more so i can really appreciate what I'm doing to my body and not  just losing the weight and focusing on the flappy bits i see developing as i get smaller. 

OK here's a little video of me removing my 6kg  tab, :)

have a good day.  As a wise boyfriend once told me , Train hard Fight easy... I'm hoping to only battle weight, :)