Today is Wednesday the 20th Feb 2013 and its weigh in day again. this finds me covering my eyes. i have made sure to do every workout and to eat the best that i can, just ignore the dark chocolate i ate to day, i blame my hormones for needing it, i really had to, no one wants me cranky and walking around kicking puppies or something do they?(OK i don't ever ever ever kick puppies and i have no intention of doing it , just to clear the air :)
this morning i got up, still tired as usual. it seems no matter how much sleep i get , i will always wake tired. i long for the day i wake up and feel super wow and full of energy. Apparently i have never been a morning person. I always remember i used to wake in a less than graceful manner, eyes squeezed shut, face all pouty, hair looking like i have been pulled through a small pipe backwards. I remember the mornings my dad used to wake me up by using a very strange voice saying " wakey wakey hands off snaky" but i remember he would stretch out every syllable , it drove me crazy, i would end up screeching at him that i was up and then trudge through the house in a bad mood. thanks dad lol. well Today started like that. Tired and cranky, Connor was saying he was unwell and snuffly, the twins heard this and tried to cotton on to it and hoped to get on his stay home from school bandwagon. It failed but oh boy i was not in the mood for the tantrums they tried after that. Every move they made was in slow motion, all the while trying to bribe me, "mum if you let me stay home like Connor i will clean my room", "look mum i have a runny nose" etc. it didn't work. I raced in to wee and weigh, but first i tried to finish all toileting , if you know what i mean , just in case theres a little extra weight i don't want to weigh.I got myself cleaned( don't want to have a few hundred grams of dirt and unshed skin on me now do i? i got my scales out, dusted them off, lined them up and got on them, got off them, got on them and back off, waited, and got back on. hm 97.2 OK i can live with that, not much of a change since last Thursday but considering I'm hormonal maybe that's a good thing, as i know in the past i have gained up to and over a kilo around this time of my cycle.
Mum was a nervous wreck by the time the last child was bundled off to school. she was here early to get our workouts done.One of these days my mornings will run smoothly and the kids will be looking forward to getting out of the house. but i managed to get my cardio done, and holy crap i pushed my body so much harder all i managed to do was exhaust myself. i was dripping sweat like a champion. Which reminds me that Damian bought mum and i sweat bands for our noggins as i had told him i was in need of getting some, its terribly hard to exercise when you have sweat running into your eyes, and i remember one moment when i yawn and felt a huge dribble of sweat roll into my mouth but couldn't close my mouth to stop it. In my head though i was screaming noooooo ewwwww. I will Have to show you a pic of us all sweat banded up just so you can point and laugh :)
I'm hoping i will start shifting some good numbers soon and i will be adding some evening cycling to try help..... if i can actually move still by evenings. I'm exhausted today and i just keep reminding myself how good this will be for me and how much better i will look when i lose the weight. i will ignore the snippets that pop in my head of a craggy wrinkly neck , a floppy skinned tummy and inner thighs that look like i have a couple of pancakes tucked into the leg of my undies.
MY vertigo is on a high note today so I'm going to go and have a feet up rest to see if i can get it to calm down, maybe con, i mean ask one of the kids to give my back a bit of a massage to help relax my neck.
Happy weigh in to all of you and have a great day including those of you not doing the Michelle Bridges 12wbt .
Tuesday 19 February 2013
Yawns , stretches and scratches ass
Boy oh boy did i wake up tired today. the last few nights have been terrible for sleep. i don't know if its because im too hot, or cold, or hungry or restless, there could be a gazillion reasons i'm sure. i will work on the sleep thing. The problem was that i had Mondayitis , today on a Tuesday , i have always been a little slow on the uptake. The tiredness was almost hard to shake today and if i had not been motivated by mum being here i may have tried a day off, then would have felt guilty for it and later probably ruined my food intake by inhaling some chocolate. it is ok though, crisis was averted. you can stop holding your breath now. i opted for the exercise and was glad i did. Mind you i was a little like a cat today, every surface i passed looked like a potential place to have a nap. I had a weak moment and ate one of the kids bikkies. it was 40 calories. *rolls eyes. i refuse to feel guilty about it, but the 6 potato gems i ate have meant im not allowed anything other than dinner tonight. I am not too ashamed of my lack of strength today as i have been doin gthis since January 5th and i have been doing awesome. Not one softdrink, chocolate bar or chip packet in sight. i have been getting the occassional one square of cadbury when Damian thinks i look homocidal , lol his answer is to race out to his hidey hole and find me a piece of choccy. the sweet man. I had to tell him that the same method would not calm a criminal about to rob a bank.
I can almost see Damian with his squares of chocolate saving the world one bad mood at a time.
Well this time it seemed to have a good effect on me, but i swear it is really hard to hold that little square of chocolate in your mouth , melting it and trying to keep the flavour there as long as possible. i think my tongue was picking at every nook and cranny on my mouth in the hopes of finding a forgotten morsal to no avail.
I will one day lose my affections for chocolate, around the same time that dogs can cook dinner i guess.
Another reason for my lethargy today was also my chest pains, they were already investigated, echocardiogram done, and all found to be ok, they believe its muscle spasms, well i describe it less as a spasm and more of a knife stab. it doesnt happen often but this morning it happened a couple of times. they are so painful, sharp and quick that they literally leave me light headed. probably due to the pain of it. i was a little concerned so i was more aware when i did my exercises. its been fine all day thank heavens. It does make me keep a close eye on it though. I suspect it has a lot to do with how i sit at the computer.My posture is crap, i mean i know how i should sit but for some reason when i get into my office chair i get all jelly like. my shoulders hunch , my tummy resting on my thighs, my breasts almost nipple to thigh , it really isnt very comfy either. i find im always shifting position, my other position isnt much better, my head back against the head rest, feet up on a foot rest , almost laying in my seat. Again i seem to find great ways to lounge myself in my office chair and not actually sit properly in them.
I just think that the slouching and the weight of my breasts may be causing the chest pain.
so the tiredness and pain almost blew my exercise. i managed to keep solidering on. It turned out to be a very busy day, not leaving any chance to even do all my housework. nawwww, she couldnt do her housework. the workout was done carefully . but now im trying not to nod off as i type. I am just that sleepy that i am starting to think the wet patch on my desk isnt from my cup but is infact a drool spot from nodding off.
Tomorrow is another cardio day. and the big weigh in . noooooooooooooo , im not looking forward to this again. last time i gained 200 grams, i just hope i get the results i want to see from it. im thinking there might be something wrong with my scales, tomorrow i will know if they need to returned to the store.
I have to go and get dinner ready, otherwise i will doze off in my chair again. the kids think that is hilarious, me typing one minute the next sleeping like a narcoleptic.
i wish everyone luck for weigh in , if i dont like what the scales say then i will have to take them back to the shop and tell them they are just not good enough :)
just for my own amusement im adding a video of my son from the weekend
I can almost see Damian with his squares of chocolate saving the world one bad mood at a time.
Well this time it seemed to have a good effect on me, but i swear it is really hard to hold that little square of chocolate in your mouth , melting it and trying to keep the flavour there as long as possible. i think my tongue was picking at every nook and cranny on my mouth in the hopes of finding a forgotten morsal to no avail.
I will one day lose my affections for chocolate, around the same time that dogs can cook dinner i guess.
Another reason for my lethargy today was also my chest pains, they were already investigated, echocardiogram done, and all found to be ok, they believe its muscle spasms, well i describe it less as a spasm and more of a knife stab. it doesnt happen often but this morning it happened a couple of times. they are so painful, sharp and quick that they literally leave me light headed. probably due to the pain of it. i was a little concerned so i was more aware when i did my exercises. its been fine all day thank heavens. It does make me keep a close eye on it though. I suspect it has a lot to do with how i sit at the computer.My posture is crap, i mean i know how i should sit but for some reason when i get into my office chair i get all jelly like. my shoulders hunch , my tummy resting on my thighs, my breasts almost nipple to thigh , it really isnt very comfy either. i find im always shifting position, my other position isnt much better, my head back against the head rest, feet up on a foot rest , almost laying in my seat. Again i seem to find great ways to lounge myself in my office chair and not actually sit properly in them.
I just think that the slouching and the weight of my breasts may be causing the chest pain.
so the tiredness and pain almost blew my exercise. i managed to keep solidering on. It turned out to be a very busy day, not leaving any chance to even do all my housework. nawwww, she couldnt do her housework. the workout was done carefully . but now im trying not to nod off as i type. I am just that sleepy that i am starting to think the wet patch on my desk isnt from my cup but is infact a drool spot from nodding off.
Tomorrow is another cardio day. and the big weigh in . noooooooooooooo , im not looking forward to this again. last time i gained 200 grams, i just hope i get the results i want to see from it. im thinking there might be something wrong with my scales, tomorrow i will know if they need to returned to the store.
I have to go and get dinner ready, otherwise i will doze off in my chair again. the kids think that is hilarious, me typing one minute the next sleeping like a narcoleptic.
i wish everyone luck for weigh in , if i dont like what the scales say then i will have to take them back to the shop and tell them they are just not good enough :)
just for my own amusement im adding a video of my son from the weekend
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