over did it, now i have an injury... oopsies

Hello wee poppets, i hope you are all having a wonderful weekend, in fact i hope you all have been having a great and active week. my week has been all over the place to be honest .
I have achieved quite a bit, i got alot of sewing done, i had an encounter with a nasty photo comment on facebook, i shall post the pics here , you see what happened was this, my ex sent me a text saying he had seen something awful on facebook and he was all upset about it. this to me was a bit of a con, my ex has a habit of trying to hurt me in as many ways as he possibly can, even 3 years after we separated. He knows i am a soft natured person who doesn't like violence and one time to try hurt me he sent an email to me of a  murder victim, i was lucky enough to only catch a glimpse of the  pic  but it was enough to set of my anxiety and panic and was a terrible terrible experience.  I  never open emails from him if there is an image, in fact i usually wont open emails from him full stop. so this was why i didn't want to go to the link he was trying to show me, instead i rang him and asked why he was trying to show me a link and what was it. He said it was a photo of me on facebook that had nasty comments under it. 
 i didn't remember there being a photo of me like that as i don't go anywhere and wondered if he had done it himself with old pics from when we were together. 
I eventually went to the link, and found this 

 At the base of the pic is nasty comments by a total stranger, who then tagged her male friend in it and had a laugh at my expense. It might not be the front of me and most people would not know who it was, the fact is that people who matter will see my sons face and realise.  This really affected me in a bad way. i hid in the bathroom and sobbed, devastated that at my age i would have nasty comments blabbed about me on facebook, not to mention that my sweet innocent little man is in plain view. this is his  mother they are making fun of. could you imagine how he would feel if he were to see this one day , or a friend of his see it. 

i cried for quite a while, telling my friends in my 12wbt forum about it, i had never come across such terrible people before like that. I reported the pic to no avail, i asked her to remove it , to no avail , i have now reported this pic 4 times and had no help from facebook at all.

 I did a lot of soul searching, looking at this pic,  going through emotions very quickly, shock, pain, embarrassment, anger, guilt , devastation...... like a rollercoaster my head was flipping feelings around seeming to search for the right one to describe how i was feeling through this. 
yes i am overweight, no its not a flattering picture but i sure don't look like i am about to go on the biggest loser. 

By that afternoon i had calmed down and  the next morning i got my kids to take a pic of me in that dress ( almost as famous as the blue Monica  dress ) 

i decided i would use the photo as a comparison pic at the start of my journey.. my new pic is below 

 i can still see rolls down my back, but i am thinking there is a lot of difference between the woman in the first picture and the woman in the second picture.. for started the woman in the first picture was suffering alot, she was miserable, fat, unhealthy, anxious, dizzy, unfit, scattered, frightened, weak and just going through each day in pain and aching waiting for the end . 

the woman in the second picture is ALIVE.. fitter, smaller , stronger, still dizzy but dealing with it better, still has moments of anxiety but is gaining strength from within that is making her a better person.  she loves being alive now and is planning a future, she looks forward to exercise and loves that her youngest son wants to do things just like her.  the second photo has a woman in it that is in a beautiful relationship and wants to experience as many things life has to hand out as she can. 

these woman are nothing alike any more, the second woman has taken over and is going to  get stronger still. 

 speaking of stronger, i had a bit of an energetic day yesterday.. meaning i went to a dance class and  burned over 300 cal for the hour, then went for a brisk beach walk  in soggy sand, which meant i had to work at it, but burned 110 cal in 18 minutes, then raced home to go to another dance class , burning another 360 cals . i was exhausted. 
I have never felt so strong though i was full of incredible energy, i just wanted to run... yep you read it right, run... OK jog with arms flailing, my running is other peoples jogging lol but i am getting there. 

well my mind and body forgot to cooperate , last night i had a nice warm shower as i was so weary from all my work, then i was making dinner, i opened the oven and kaboom, pain all across my middle back...nooooooooo   what was this all about,? when will i be able to train again.?will i be able to wipe my own butt?, these were all thoughts shooting through my head as fast as the pain was intensifying. after a few nurofen, bed and hot water bottle i managed the pain better, but  i got a fitful night sleep, and today its very tender like i had done a killer workout, i am taking it easy today, i had a hot shower this morning at 7 and spent till 11am doing my housework so i can be ready for my relax later, then it came to me, i was listening to music and steam mopping my floors, when i got the urge...... I WANT TO PAINT.  So as soon as i finished cleaning i have prepped a new portrait ,this time i am going to try my hand at celebrities, my first being the one and only Johnny Depp, mmmmmmm yummy... i hope i can get this right, it will be fun having a long deep look at that perfect face of his though(from an artists perspective of course)*looks around to see if damo read that.

so it has indeed been a week of business emotionally for me. i will still be working as hard as my back will allow, otherwise i will do lots of cycling.
  Take care and do something your future self will thank you for... i know mine will :)