I am here to tell you that there was not many women like me, Chocolate,... oh my gosh... there was nothing in my life i adored more than the sweet brown naughtiness of chocolate. ( other than my kids) I knew many ways to get a new and exciting choccy hit, i could bake the most mouth watery choc chip cookies that were warm and gooey , oh nom nom nom..... how i loved them, sometimes the kids only got 1 or 2 if they were lucky because i could wipe a tray of them down without blinking.
Then there was chocolate bars, i could eat 2 or 3 without a flutter of my tummy, it was like mothers milk to me, i would use it as relaxation to sit back, laptop going, a lemonade and a bunch of chocolate. i earned it , i cleaned and took care of my family so i was having it dammit.
There was also Nutella, oh myyyyyy, that sweet , gooey goodness, it became my main source of nutrition when i was looking after the twins as babies, a massive jar of nutella beside me, spoon always at the ready and i would get through a large jar in a day or two. Heaven help anyone that came near that jar, i was like a lioness. i did this more regularly than i did veges for a long time, then when i got wiser and ditched it for a sometimes treat. It was still my weakness though and i would often be seen buying a small jar to eat.
I would eat anything that was chocolate, especially if it was warm and melty, some of my fave treats USED TO BE,
double choc fudge mcflurry with half the choc, double the fudge pieces and marshmallows
Mars bars but into tiny pieces and mixed through honey macadamia ice cream
honey comb pieces in ice cream
subway cookies of any variety'
and cadbury chocolate family sized that i fancied at the time
thins original crips
Jars of nutella
Ferero rocher
all cadbury favourites.
As you can see i was a sugar addict, a chocoholic, there was not one day that went by with out it, even to the point of people knowing that was the way to my heart, my daughters friend would buy me some all the time as thank you.
That all began to change when i joined the 12 week body transformation. I stopped with the amounts of chocolate i used to eat, i started to see where i was always getting it so very wrong.
Tonight my darling man brought me a tiny one square of cadbury chocolate and i lovingly melted it in my mouth for as long as i could and wow what a difference, it didn't make me feel as warm and snuggly as i used to. I was frowning and realising that this was not as enjoyable as it once was. maybe its just my feeling today, or maybe this is how my body s feeling now. Either way it was both sad and awesome at the same time. I loved my chocolate and i never thought i would ever say this but I'm now leaning towards dark chocolate and a very small amount... its like I'm going all healthy or something, crap how did that happen....
I will always cherish the memories we had chocolate, i thank you for all the good times we had together. even though i may not be needing you any more , i promise i will keep in touch ,,,, Love always
Gayle.
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